My Heart Was Full In Between Of The Azure Sky and An Endless Ocean

“I always remind myself that everything I have is someday gonna be gone…”

I am going to write a prelude that can remind us of something important: If you now have three main opportunities which are money, health and time, and you still have your parents beside you, and you’ve been planning to travel together but your heart is in fickle, shift everything and go. Go to places and spend time together. Do those things that are simply beautiful, that you can’t do when you’re working late for some deadlines. Those things will be remembered and leave smiles when you see the pictures. When you still have time to create memories with your loved ones, do it. Time is ticking faster than you think.

If there is one thing I regret the most now is the fact that when my dad was alive and I had the money, I didn’t go places with him. We had the time but I didn’t have das Bewusstsein. Neither having a family vacation nor just the two of us. It leaves that endless sorrow deep in my heart. It marks in my mind that every single opportunity I have at the moment, to create more and more memories, with beloved ones, I will must do it. Every year I’m home, I always try to make time travelling with my mom. Taking her to places as many as possible, to a proper hotel where she enjoys the bed and view, to her favourite restaurant where she always orders the same menu with warm tea in a red pot, to those night markets where she smiles every time she has her favourite street food, cherishes the time we have together.

The time I had two months in Indonesia, among my excitement to do my own things, my “hello-why-am-I-working-at-home-when-I’m-on-leave” job, and my mom’s house renovation which requires a lot of money (yet it is exciting at the same time), I was excited that I chose to take the risk. I must say it wasn’t really easy this time, since I had to think about each bill I would spend for the vacation and the big plan for the renovation. When I flew back to Indonesia, what I had in mind was actually to do a minor renovation for her kitchen and bathroom by modifying it for a spacious space. Yet, it was such a dream when I stood in front of the small building and saw that the structure had been wholly taken down. It was such a dream indeed. The renovation is going on as I am writing this sentence, I believe that my late dad is smiling above about that. It’s such a thing he would love to do to see his house being renovated.

Before I flew to Indonesia, I had a plan to Labuan Bajo, island-hopping to Padar Island and nearby before going back and spending the last 2 days at Ayana. But I considered the fact that it wouldn’t be easy for my mom to climb the hill even though she would love it. I always took my mom to those I called “easy-peasy” travel destinations such as Bali and Batu (many times!) so why didn’t I try the further and calmer island with no hassle instead? Lombok was the choice.

The day I sat in front of my iMac booking for the resorts, looking for flights, and browsing where to eat, it reminded me that vacation planning is an exciting thing to do. I smiled at the end when I completed the payment and set the date: the twentieth of July, twenty twenty-three :)

We flew for an hour and five minutes from Surabaya and landed on Lombok by one in the afternoon. I got a rental car with a driver right at the airport and drove straight to Senggigi. Along the road, my first impression was Lombok was surprisingly calmer and cleaner than Bali, indeed. After almost an hour of driving, we landed in the resort where uncountable lofty coconut trees and the azure sky welcomed us. I just loved the fact that we had the slow type of vacation I imagined during our 2-night stay. Breakfast in the morning, relaxing doing nothing by the pool, napping, pampering eyes for the golden hour by the beach, chilling in the cottage for the rest of the day, on repeat.

I took the risk by sharing our stays in Lombok with two different resorts. The only thing I was worried about was the fact that how we packed our belongings in our luggage, had to be as simple as possible so it wouldn’t take too much time to unpack and repack. I honestly didn’t check the distance between Holiday Resort and Avila until I was in the car when we almost arrived at Holiday Resort on our first day. I was relieved by the fact that it wasn’t that far :)

I planned the trip without any island hopping to Gili Trawangan etc. because I wanted us to have a relaxing holiday. I did go to places on our past family vacation when I had to manage everyone and everything as if I was a travel planner and damn, it was exhausting. I promised myself I wouldn’t do that for our Lombok trip, but to enjoy every second we had with simple things and create memories.

The day I saw the design of Royal Avila on Booking(dot)com, I said to myself that I would try to pay a visit even for just one night. I didn’t even bother to read reviews but tried to picture how picturesque the balcony of the room that faces the ocean was. When you spend money on a fancy hotel or resort, wouldn’t you pamper your eyes too and capture as many as possible with your camera? Recording videos of sunsets and the shades of blue of the ocean? :) If I go places when on vacation, I choose a decent hotel where I can still sleep comfortably. But when it’s for a staycation in a fancy hotel or resort, I will use the facilities as much as possible, taking naps on a super comfortable bed on Monday when others are working :)

What I loved about our stay in Avila was the fact that the resort was so pretty, it was as picturesque as what I saw on the screen. The receptionist was so welcome, the blue ocean omg I couldn’t stop myself from grabbing my iPhone from my tote bag while we were waiting for our check-in time. They welcomed us with cold lemongrass tea, it was a good start for an unforgettable stay. It’s a new resort so everything we saw was a beaut. I wanted to have the suite room for myself when I booked online but then I thought “The difference could be saved for my mom’s new kitchen set!” I mean? :) everything I have been doing recently must be mathematically wise ((fancy kitchen set is expensive omg))). Little did I know that a little magic happened when I sat and heard, “We are giving you a room upgrade for one, to an Ocean Premier room, where you will have a bath up.” at no additional cost :)

I was so stoked at the end of the trip that we had good times while we still had it, and the fact that I invested the value of my money in something I wished for: an unforgettable beautiful memory :)

I’ll share the room I stayed in at Royal Avila on a separate post cause I have so many :) so this post won’t be too long :) If you wonder, all shots were taken with an iPhone 12 Pro Max with no edits :)

Hits Different. Oh, Hits The Same!


And indeed, it feels, it hits the same. Every time someone faces a thing called “see you again…”, there is always a little melancholia behind every smile. And somehow, when you do try to fake a smile, it feels broken inside.


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Hits Different. Oh, Hits The Same!

It’s me, hi! writing this short note just a few hours before I fly again to another part of the globe.

Yes, I have just a few hours left to complete the sixty days I have this year for my annual leave. This time around, there was nothing like flying to another country for vacation, yet I did go to some places in the country. And I was totally fine! I used to think for a week in Kyoto, or even Marrakech. The best part of the short vacation was spending it with my family and it was to Lombok (my first time there, and I loved it, will post it in a separate post!). Postponing again for my own-house renovation because my mom said, “Do mine first” and I said, “Okay” (truly, I won’t blame you for rolling your eyes every time I write “my own house” because yes, a few years doing nothing and now it’s postponed again). I did manage to visit my house a few days ago, and every time I am standing in front of it I am always laughing. It is too bad ignoring it for years but well, let’s see if the fortunes are on my side very soon :) Eating quite a lot of Indonesian food, even though everyone says that I am getting bigger and chubbier (hey, somehow calling someone fat is really annoying lol! so be thoughtful a bit!). I haven’t survived the great war (read: Eras Tour), and it felt sucky even though 1989 TV is on its way, so I hope I can listen to some bops from the vault and feel better. Spending time with my closest friends was amazing this year, I always left with big smiles cause we really did manage to look for proper times to meet, and in the end, everything went well. I will try to write many posts again in this blog when I settle back to a real-life among crazy things in the job, upcoming projects, following up with my mom’s renovation remotely, and dramas on Netflix that I ignored since I landed in Indonesia that is going to rob my time, daily routine (I’ll miss grabbing hot cappuccino from local coffee shops!), many more things ahead! So I can still have that “balance” in life by writing down all my memories so that someday when I reread them, I can keep smiling that I have lived my life.

I can only say A TON OF THANKS from the bottom of my heart for those close and good friends I spent time with this year, because I do realise that the distance between us when we get older is one of those that can end our friendship, so I THANK YOU!

I’m logging off again for a very short time, and hey, on my last day here, I woke up from a dream (that seemed so real omg) when I told one of my best friends, Knogler Andreas, who is currently in Kazakhstan, that I didn’t realise I was in Germany, and later I saw my Schengen visa. Damn, what a ridiculous yet sweet dream. Perhaps that was one sign I would see him sooner in Europe. Ich drücke dir die Daumen! Dear me :)